today may be the day i finally break. i have been holding up so well. playing it as cool as i can, keep positive thoughts, but today i feel more alone than i have in a long time. sometimes, there are things that you need that friends and relatives can't help with. sometimes you just need someone there that cares, and not just because they have to. i want to see your face. i want to hear your voice. i want to hold you hand. if i had known it was going to be the last time i kissed you, i would have made it one i wouldn't ever forget. but i didn't know. now I'm just stuck here with a few regrets and a heart that isn't even close to being fixed. just because I'm acting fine, doesn't mean i am fine. i just don't want you to see me at my worst again. for now, ill just keep looking over at my phone, hoping to get a text from you...