I don't even know what it is I'm wanting to say to you. I don't even know how to put it into words. I knew how amazing it would be close to you, but I had no idea (i)t would feel like this. I don't know what I'm going to do when I'm gone and this dream ends. I have never hated distance as much as I do right now. I just want you to know that you make me smile like nothing else. I want this to work. I hope you do too.