im only acting okay most of the time. saving thoughts and ideas for a more convenient time. right now is the exact opposite of perfect. from "i had a great time with you tonight" to "i love you so much babe" to nothing at all. what am i supposed to believe?

i really hate feeling ignorant.

it looks like you made you decision, and i made my bed but i'm the only person laying in it. my sheets are cold and i feel hollow and broken.

(hugging a pillow doesn't make me feel the way hugging you does)

sometimes i feel like a stranger in my own body. i promise myself its easy to just forget.
you promised me things would be different.